Relativity

A person in a person,

Bundled up with twine

Wanting to escape their shell

But it's never the right time

They are within a house,

And the house within a world;

A world inside an hourglass,

The sands inside a fist.

The fist belongs to a man -

Call him what you will

God, Lucifer, you or me -

It's really just the same.

The man is adrift the cosmos,

Swimming in a sea

Of silver-studded hopes and dreams,

Their clashes a symphony

But the ocean isn't endless,

It's banks are up ahead.

The fears, the worries, the regrets

Are all but dirt upon the ground

The waters and mud combined,

They are encircled by a sky
Is it limitless potential
Or just another lie?

A house, a world, a glass, a man, and whatever follows next

Are all but homes we build ourselves -

Or perhaps cages describes it best

All these held together, they are contained

By one inescapable prison

Ensnared, enamored, irrevocably held

Within the borders of an ever-flowing mind

Rumination

I wrote this this morning. 
It has no pattern, it's just unvetted thoughts on a page. 
I almost titled it 'I Know', but the thing is, I don't. And right now, anything else would be a lie. 

                                                                          

I'm drowning,

All my thoughts are a cacophony of voices

Dissonant, strange, cold -

And then they're gone, hollowed out

A shell of a brain, and maybe of a human.

When I woke up, there was the rain

It was quiet and distant, up against the windowpanes

So close, impossible to touch

Everything was still a dream, so

What is reality and what is myth,

And what bridges the two?

That sort of magic, it's what dreams are made of:

The endless impossibilities,

The confusion and mayhem,

The monsters under beds and the ones in plain sight.

I wonder, sometimes, if I'm becoming one of them,

If the lines between hopeless optimist and illusionist

Are so blurred that they're inseparable.

But maybe I'm not the hero.

As any daydreamer will tell you,

Heroes are happy -

They have princesses to keep them company and castles against the wind.

If I'm a good person,

Maybe I wouldn't wake up from all the noise and just feel . . .

Empty.

So I'll watch the rain,

Put my hands against the glass,

And wonder yet again:

Who am I?

What will it take to know?

Dial Up (Part 2)

So, funny story. I decided I'd do a post on Valentine's Day (and oh, look at the date . . .)
and then just . . . didn't do anything for a month? For some reason? I don't know,
I just got it into my head that I could only post one thing. I have no idea why. I was also
hideously sick for two weeks, which helped.
Anyways, have a great day and here's Dial Up, part two.

Jake

Jake

Jake

Jakie

Jake from state farm

Stalker?

JAKE

(8:47 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

What do you want

And also why are you texting me again

(8:49 PM, Me)

Well, I'm so glad you asked

You see, it sounds like you have no social life

And I'm tragically bored

(8:50 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

'Tragically'

The world would end if you ceased to be entertained

(8:51 PM, Me)

Exactly, you got it in one

It's the job of the jesters to occupy my attention

Thus, you

(8:51 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That's awful nice

Except

And I could be wrong

But it seems like you don't have a social life either if I am your go-to

(8:52 PM, Me)

It's less about that and more like all my friends are at this party

(Which I am also at, because I am not a shut in like you)

(8:52 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I can only tolerate getting hit on by stoners so many times before it loses its appeal

(8:53 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

How tragic

Getting hit on

Can't imagine a worse fate

(8:54 PM, Me)

No, you couldn't

(8:54 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I bet you wouldn't be able to visualize so many eligible people vying for your attention at once

At least you have me

(8:55 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That's not very encouraging

I'd rather be alone tbh

(8:55 PM, Me)

Awww, we both know that's not true

I'm your future wife after all

(8:55 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I thought we were over that

PLEASE let us be over that

(8:55 PM, Me)

Never

I will never forget

My species never does

(8:56 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Your species being apes?

(8:56 PM, Me)

Being females

Yes, we are a separate race

(8:57 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

A much more advanced class of being

And we can forgive but we will NEVER let things go

(8:58 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

So, not a 35 year old man after all

That's a relief

(8:59 PM, Me)

Nup, I'm 60 and cantankerous as hell

(8:59 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Still slumming in my mother's basement thou

It's pretty nice, sleeping with the rats

(9:01 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Oh, so now there's an infestation

Comforting

(9:02 PM, Me)

They're very good listeners, even if they all carry the plague

And especially if all your friends are in the hubbub of a party

(9:04 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That sounds rather familiar, actually . . .

(9:05 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

If you're trying to garner pity, it's not working

I might be tempted to call social services on you

And the CDC

You need serious help

(9:07 PM, Me)

Wasn't that obvious?

And so do you, otherwise you wouldn't be texting me

And you'd have a girlfriend

(9:08 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That is a work in progress

Eventually I'll get there

(9:09 PM, Me)

Oh, eventually

How reassuring

So do you mean in this century or the next?

(9:10 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

You

Are in very rare form tonight

Remind me again why I should entertain you?

(9:11 PM, Me)

Because I need attention

(9:11 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I'm annoying like that

But you love it

(9:12 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I've talked to you maybe once

And completely by accident, I might say

(9:13 PM, Me)

Lucky you, then

According to all the frat boys, I'm quite the catch

If only I weren't tipsy, then I might attempt to be less cruel

(9:14 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

You are texting remarkably well for someone who claims to be not-sober

How do I know you aren't lying about the party?

(9:15 PM, Me)

I suppose you don't

But tbh, I have a lot of practice texting while mildly tipsy

(9:15 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

My older sister gets worried and I don't want her to have a stroke, so

I lie

Autocorrect helps, sometimes

(9:16 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Such an upstanding citizen

Truly an inspiration

(9:17 PM, Me)

I know, I know

A model of civil disobedience

- but -

That is sometimes necessary in society

(9:18 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

The principles of transcendentalism are on my side

(9:19 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

What?

(9:21 PM, Me)

That's, like

A literary movement

Didn't your college english courses teach you anything

(9:23 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I mostly slept through them, tbh

The tests were easy and I can analyze ok

(9:24 PM, Me)

Not great, but

I got a B and the occasional A in uni

(9:25 PM, Me)

How disappointing

Henry David Thoreau is very upset

He's rolling over in his grave

(9:26 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I think I'll live

(9:27 PM, Me)

Mmm, but he won't

(9:27 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

He's already dead, right

So I don't see the problem

(9:28 PM, Me)

That's rather inconsiderate

Much like you prying at my texting

(9:29 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

It's all highly suspicious

(9:31 PM, Me)

And yet here you still are

I must be doing something right

(9:33 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That's a negative

I'm just also very bored

(9:34 PM, Me)

How fortunate

Now you're suffering with me

A big improvement, right

(9:35 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

No, not at all

It's just you or advanced calc, so

I choose you

(9:37 PM, Me)

Pokemon, nice

(9:37 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

No, stop that

We aren't going there

(9:39 PM, Me)

Gotta catch 'em all

(9:40 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Nope nope nope I'm getting flashbacks and they all suck

I'd rather forget the DS portion of my adolescence thank you very much

(9:41 PM, Me)

You're welcome, but

Charmander was the best

(9:42 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

How can you even say that

(9:44 PM, Me)

Please tell me you aren't a pikachu fan

He's adorable but very basic

(9:46 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

You have to have some good points, since your flirting is clearly abysmal

(9:47 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

First of all, kindly step off

And second, Bulbasaur is king

(9:48 PM, Me)

But charmie is fire-based

Like me, who also enjoys setting things up in smoke

(9:51 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

You like arson???

(9:52 PM, Me)

I shoulda been a chemist

I coulda exploded shit for a living

(9:54 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

The planet would never survive

(9:54 PM, Me)

Not my problem after we're all gone, right

(9:55 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Still, horrifying

And Bulbasaur is arguably the best

(9:56 PM, Me)

He grows stuff right out of his back

He can create other living things

That's pretty cool

(9:57 PM, Me)

His later power-ups aren't cute

Charmander is both adorable and deadly

Truly my spirit animal

(9:58 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Wow, you have no taste

(9:59 PM, Me)

My taste is impeccable

You just don't appreciate my talents

(10:01 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Are offhanded insults a talent?

I never noticed

(10:02 PM, Me)

Better believe it

And I'm the queen

(10:02 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Maybe over a kingdom of isolation, but

You're not scoring any points with me

(10:04 PM, Me)

Omg

You are not a grown man who quotes FROZEN are you

(10:04 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I have small nieces

And my older brother bribes me to babysit

(10:05 PM, Me)

Riiiiiiight

Like you don't watch frozen for fun

(10:05 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

No, I don't

(10:06 PM, Me)

Because, once again, I am a grown man

(10:07 PM, Me)

Don't worry, one day you'll meet a woman who will go out with you of her own free will

(10:08 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Together you will have children, and then that child will serve as an excuse to surreptitiously
view Disney flicks

(10:09 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

There's no shame in it, Jake

We all binge

(10:10 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I feel . . .

Uncomfortable

Yes, that's the word

(10:11 PM, Me)

I have that effect on men, yeah

(10:11 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

That's not good you know

(10:12 PM, Me)

I'm very disappointed in you

(10:12 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

You're always disappointed, it seems

(10:13 PM, Me)

Very true

You know me too well, J

(10:13 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Damn, please no

(10:14 PM, Me)

Ha

Too freakin' late

Ah cool, my uber got here

(10:15 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Wait, was I just a distraction until a shady guy in a van came to drive you home

(10:17 PM, Me)

I feel played

And here I thought you wanted my company

(10:18 PM, Me)

Bit of both?

(10:19 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

I hate you

(10:22 PM, Me)

Aw, love you too Jakie

Text ya tomorrow if the hangover isn't too bad ;-)

(10:25 PM, Judgemental Stranger)

Begone, demon

(10:25 PM, Me)

As you wish

(10:26 PM, Judgemental Stranger)